One-sided thing.
I’m back. I haven’t really been receiving many cards lately, but there is this card -from the Spanish man I mentioned earlier- from Valencia above. According to these photographs the city looks fascinating and I’d really want to visit it some day. Aren’t those colours just beautiful? Not to mention all the amazing sights the card shows.
Although I’m very happy for the great grades I got in the 3rd period and all, I’m still not very good. You see, my so-called best friend and I had a huge fight yesterday that apparently ended up the worst way. We kind of “broke up” if you know what I mean. It didn’t come across as a big change because we haven’t really been friends for a long time. If we ever have. I mean, it was such one-sided thing… I was the only one keeping in touch, I always asked her how she is and called her and stuff. She never did. Not even when I told her I had some serious worries I would have wanted to talk about. All she did was asking “And you?” after I had asked her how she is first. Or yes, she tried to get me to tell her my problems – in the middle of our Spanish lesson! Geez. She never called, texted, asked if I’m OK or anything. And tell me if I’m wrong but that really indicates she was never interested in me or my things in the first place.
After I finally told her how I felt (I had mentioned some things many times earlier, too so it couldn’t surprise her) she got horribly mad and denied everything. The funny thing is that she told me she never asks any of her friends how they are or contacts them and that it isn’t personal (which means she admitted she’s not active). And that she knows keeping in touch is the base of a relationship but still doesn’t do that herself. “It doesn’t mean I wouldn’t be interested in your things!” And then she just continued needling back to everything I said. Like what the fuck?! I can’t believe I ever told her anything. Maybe it’s just because I didn’t have any other to talk to so I didn’t care even if I was the only one keeping it all up. The longest time she didn’t take any contact was six months as I tested if I’m just imaging she never takes contact. Well, I finally ended up giving up and taking contact myself… Now I just cannot be the one anymore. I’m so disappointed she refused to even try to see things from my point of view and kind of denied everything (admitted she doesn’t keep in touch but thinks it is fine), I can’t believe I made myself thinking we were best friends. How blind I was! But like I said, this isn’t any change since we actually weren’t in contact with each other. Still I’m confused about the situation. I mean, what is the difference if I talked to the walls? I’m just saying.
